generally speaking

sometimes i sense that this breakneck speed which is my life affects my little sphere of influence in larger ways than just flattening it into a pancake of stress. because sometimes i think that if i just put the urgencies and emergencies of daily life on pause




like so




and thought about things

(i mean, really thought about things), you know,
as in yanked my habits and spending and schedule in line with my convictions, it could--

quite possibly

--change everything.


(and unchange is always so much easier. mindless, but so bloody convenient.)