therapy

Well, it looks like you all are dead-set on helping me overcome my aversion to tag. Emily has blessed me with this middle-name meme, where each letter reveals something potentially fascinating about yours truly (emphasis on the potentially).

I'm all about self-improvement today, and besides, who can say no to Em? So here we go.

My middle name is Keli'i which is Hawaiian for royalty or chief or some such thing. If I'm wrong, don't enlighten me; I like to think it means your-royal-chiefness. {Incidentally, I've always thought it sounded masculine (probably because of its proximity to Keali'i), but my parents named me after a girl at the Nanaikapono Church in Nanakuli. So at least two of us are female chiefs. Chieftesses? Whatever.}

Alrighty. Now here we really go.

Kinda sorta ambivalent. Don't get me wrong: when I have an opinion, it's firm. But when I don't, I can wishy-wash-it with them best of 'em. My answer to just about any question: "It depends."

Plus, I'm ambivalent in the sense that I teem with inconsistencies and contradictions. Sensitive yet critical. Intuitive yet pragmatic. Okay next.

I was leaning toward engaging or enigmatic or endearing or earnest, but that would be dishonest, and I don't have a d in my name. Unfortunately.

So I'll have to go with preoccupied with the existential. I'm forever redefining what I believe about life, truth, God, purpose. Establishing why I hold fast to the notion of absolute truth, evaluating my belief that we can know it (or a shadow of it), examining whether my approximations of reality may even come close. TMI and you don't care, eh? Moving right along...

I seek out people who make me laugh. Honestly, I value wit far more than I ought: never mind if you're completely empty of moral character; be clever and you're instantly on my list of favorite people.

Insecure yet sensationally cocky. Another contradiction that means me.

Introspective. (And over-analytical and self-deprecating and mildly neurotic.)(I need a longer name.)


And now I shall tag Brillig, because she's fun and also a genius.

"`Twas brillig, and the slithy toves
Did gyre and gimble in the wabe..."