11 June 2012

unwrinkled.

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last week we headed west through miles of corn and the occasional horse farm to hike at our nearest state park. the jaunt itself was twenty percent hiking, eighty percent pitching rocks into the river, but after a long stretch of eventually, we managed to circle back to our van and waiting lunches.


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little em continues to plug along. often i'm too close to the every day gritty to see straight, but when i give the past year a sweeping glance, our growth is something big. remember how he used to scream his lungs off during half our walks? we've heard nary a peep in ages, and now he'll even ask to race his older brothers and sister.

i, however, have been hormonal and weird these past few days, sporting maturity that would embarrass most twelve year olds. i've had many a stern talk with myself, mostly to the tune of nic, get a grip and soon, and then followed up those talks with asking God to get a firm hold on me because clearly i cannot be left unsupervised with my own attitude.


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today we'll tackle some work about the house, then trek out again for Uncharted Territories. the morning fans out before me like a promise unwrinkled, and i'm a beggar again, shaking God down for the gumption to choose to smile and affirm and love enough for this day.

left to my own devices, i'm toast, but God in me? has so got this.

:)

now spill: what does your tuesday have up its sleeve? and what has God been doing in you lately?

16 comments:

Kim said...

yep, on my own....ugly, ugly mess. He's been teaching me that He is strong enough for the both of us, that He's got this, that we might not have "happily ever after" but we'll aim for "glorifying Him until the ever after." maybe the boys aren't obeying every minute. maybe they're disrespectful 90% of the day. but what's important? where i stand with Him. this tuesday i'm relying on extra doses of grace as chris is working a full day.

Brandee Shafer said...

Check this out: for Mother's Day, my husband bought my 1999 minivan and me an HD radio w/ a cd player and an Ipod adapter. Can you imagine? Hello, 2012! No more cassette tapes! So I'm going, today, to have my new radio installed. Aren't I fancy? I have some road trips coming up: excited...

I'm glad you're fighting to see the big picture. I'm such an Israelite: forgetting the miracles, looking only at what's right in front of my face. You inspire.

CurlyGirlD said...
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CurlyGirlD said...

Your words touch me every time I read them. And today, more than ever, reminding yourself to "get a grip" & "let go, let God"...well, they really hit home with me. I'm struggling lately in all aspects, but your reminder brought a welcome smack in the face & a touch of peace. Thank you.

Carolyn said...

Hummm....I see that twelve year old 'tude at work in me today too....fussing about the unwanted task my husband left for me today that messes up "my" agenda for the day. Why can't he just go off to work, make lots of money and stay out of my business? Sheesh!-Do I need an attitude adjustment or what? So today finds me in the kitchen trying once more-hopefully with more success this time around-figuring out what one does with the fruit pulled from the top of very tall cacti. I'm thankful Abba is big enough to love me in spite of my mind-tantrums.

Holly Lynn said...

One thing I LOVE about your blog is how real you make adoption. Thank you for your honesty, that is laced in hope and truth. My husband and I have been praying about adoption and I just really appreciate your perspective about the venture. So happy for you over your family's growth!

Katarina said...

Such a beautiful post and as always amazing pics!!!Being surrounded by the ugly buildings in the city, it's so refreshing to see that walk into the forest;))xxx

Joy Kinard said...

Oh I have had quite the attitude of my own this week. Full on little girls fits over STUFF. My goodness, it has been shameful.

Been praying about Africa. God seems to be whispering it over and over to me, and with each time, your face. It's giving me plenty of opportunities to pray!

Farmgirl Paints said...

i'm always putting myself under the microscope feeling guilty for something or other. or maybe it's conviction instead of guilt, regardless i understand your musings. so glad sailing has been smoother in your home. even when we aren't paying attention He's got us covered.

Allyson said...

completely there with you in the attitude department.. reminding myself constantly to reach the end of me and instead, rely on God. why are we such a controlling people?? (ugh)
love your honesty and words so full of grace.

lulu and family said...

first, "when i give the past year a sweeping glance, our growth is something big." beautiful and thankful with you. and to "asking God to get a firm hold on me because clearly i cannot be left unsupervised with my own attitude." amen, nic. i love your openness and honesty about our need. oh, i see and feel it daily. so thankful for him. i'm a beggar with you. our tuesday was dentist appts. and helping my guy with home maintaince, as much as i can. that first shot--sooooo lovely. makes me want to be there with you all!=)

Amy Sullivan said...

Ohhh, the way you capture life. Pure beauty.

hannah singer said...

beautiful. HE does have it. all of it under control.

praying your weekend is a joy to your whole fam. love to you! xo

hannah singer said...

beautiful. HE does have it. all of it under control.

praying your weekend is a joy to your whole fam. love to you! xo

Flower Patch Farmgirl said...

You describe me so well, here. Maybe it's something in the IN air (we foolishly pretend)?? Pray for me, I'll pray for you.

xo

Galatians 6:9 said...

God is teaching me many, many things. One of them being how much I have to fully depend off him to meet my needs. He is forcing me to do that in a very real way this week. I would love to share more with you soon!