19 November 2009

baring my soul. and stuff.

where to begin?

back in my sophomore year of college (can that really be fourteen years ago? yeesh) my roomie ann and i would stretch across our bunks and solve the world's problems. don't get me wrong, i was still largely self-absorbed, but i had brief bouts of clarity, where the vast needs of others felt compelling and urgent.

fast-forward to last november in nashville, where the hubby and i attended national youth workers convention. every speaker, every session, every seminar seemed geared toward the same end: to get us to wake up and see the suffering of others, and then do what's necessary to change it.

we've met needs on a small scale. we've foregone a bit of personal comfort. but i am certain we haven't even shown up in the ballpark of loving just one other family as much as we love ourselves.

the hubby and i have sorted through these concerns many times, but over the past year we've wrestled more intently than ever. we're making changes, some of them public, some personal. i, for one, hope this continues.

one of the ways we are aiming to love God and treasure other people is through adoption. i don't enjoy broaching depressing subjects, but sometimes reality is grim: across the world, millions of orphaned and abandoned children need families. (along a similar vein, millions of vulnerable families need stable scaffolding to help them sustain themselves, to remain intact, to flourish.)

i want to be mom to a child who needs a mother. i want to play backyard kickball with her, and embarrass him with enthusiastic picture-taking before the prom, and see her off to college with my heart all at once hopeful and breaking.

this is just the start of our adoption process, and much is still unknown, but everything inside me thrills at the thought of another child to love.

we are a lot excited and a lot intimidated, with hope laced through it all. truly, the best is yet to come.

18 comments:

Flower Patch Farmgirl said...

I recently told a friend of mine that I could see us ending up like "one of those families with 18 kids". Looks like you've taken it right in the heart, too. If God provides them, we will love them.

So excited that we have reconnected (or rather, connected!) so that I can walk part of this road along with you!

~love said...

totally crying. so happy for your announcement. so happy for your family. you know i'm praying for you, but have been so.much.today.
i look forward to watching God continue to lead you on this journey. this amazing, blessed journey.
love you!

CurlyGirlD said...

Nic,

You are about to embark on a beautiful journey! I wish you luck & love in this amazing process.

Courtney said...

This news is SUPER exciting...You are amazing & I love your family..wishing you all the best in your adoption adventure! This is our dream one day as well :)

Leah said...

Awe...what a perfect family for some little one to be a part of! How lucky they are and how lucky you will be to share this experience. You have such a beautiful sole and huge heart and I so admire you. I've been reading "Jenn's" blog through her process. God definitely knows who will make great parents and role models for these little people. What an amazing amazing thing you are doing!!! Congratulations!!!!

Our church is also doing the same thing...trying to open new doors for people less fortunate...the need is there and a pat on your back & your families for making a difference!!!

BookishPenguin said...

What a beautiful announcement! I've often thought about adopting, myself, and look forward to reading what you have to say on the journey.

Deconstructing Jen said...

Oh Nic! This is just amazing! I'm so happy for you and your family that you are making this choice and taking this step. You won't regret it for a minute!

Anonymous said...

your blog has touched my heart many times and for that I thank you. You are beautiful and I am in awe of God's work through you.
lovingly, your sister in Christ.

Kimberly said...

Your striving is such an inspiration - especially to see it in one whose heart is already so open, so big, so warm.

Jenn said...

tears that this will become a reality for you. and knowing full well that it is your lives that will be touched so much more so than the life of the children God has planned for you. so happy to be on this road with you. praying daily for God's leading. much love.

Jenn

PamperingBeki said...

Nic!!!!! I could just hug you right now!!

Beautiful.

Fledgling said...

Bless you and your family in this endeavor.

Strength, faith, joy and peace through the process.

"All human beings are born free and equal in dignity and rights. They are endowed with reason and conscience and should act towards one another in a spirit of brotherhood."
(Article 1 of the Universal Declaration of Human Rights)

-N.

Sara Farrar Photography said...

what an amazing gift to give and to receive. our prayers are with you and your family!! this is such a joyful, hopeful, and exciting time... God is so good. all the best to all of you and the lucky little lives about to flourish with endless LOVE!

Sara Farrar Photography said...

what an amazing gift to give and to receive. our prayers are with you and your family!! this is such a joyful, hopeful, and exciting time... God is so good. all the best to all of you and the lucky little lives about to flourish with endless LOVE!

sara farrar photography said...

what an amazing gift to give and to receive. our prayers are with you and your family!! this is such a joyful, hopeful, and exciting time... God is so good. all the best to all of you and the lucky little lives about to flourish with endless LOVE!

Sara Farrar Photography said...

what an amazing gift to give and to receive. our prayers are with you and your family!! this is such a joyful, hopeful, and exciting time... God is so good. all the best to all of you and the lucky little lives about to flourish with endless LOVE!

Sara Farrar Photography said...

what an amazing gift to give and to receive. our prayers are with you and your family!! this is such a joyful, hopeful, and exciting time... God is so good. all the best to all of you and the lucky little lives about to flourish with endless LOVE!

Flower Patch Farmgirl said...

I recently told a friend of mine that I could see us ending up like "one of those families with 18 kids". Looks like you've taken it right in the heart, too. If God provides them, we will love them.

So excited that we have reconnected (or rather, connected!) so that I can walk part of this road along with you!