28 May 2009

introspection and stuff.

"how we spend our days is, of course, how we spend our lives." (annie dillard)


gathering dirt


apres l'ecole


i've been thinking about this lately, about how i construct our days and the use of our resources. some of it's worth keeping, but much shuffling is in order.

another thought, so obvious and yet new to me: whenever i choose to pour my resources--my time, energy, thoughts, money--into something, i am, by default, choosing to not spend it on all the other things. when i decide to windowshop online, i am choosing to not play magic-trick-show with elle. when i drop another carton or two of breyer's strawberry ice cream into my grocery cart, i am choosing (inactively, perhaps, but still choosing) to not send a mosquito net to malaria-plagued cameroon. it gives me pause.

whenever i start talking (and, occasionally, acting) along these lines, i seem to elicit a verbal barrage from The Voices of Reason to the tune of woah there, nic. calm down. you needn't be so extreme.

but really? needn't i? because all i can tell you is that in my experience, a life of personal comfort is overrated. and the people i most admire in the history of humankind--francis of assisi, mother teresa, jesus--were all about giving themselves away. they were extreme.

so indeed, much shuffling is in order. wish me luck fortitude a miracle.

19 comments:

DollieDimples Boutique said...

Nic, that was the perfect post for me today. Thank you, although you probably don't know the magnitude of your words to my heart, God does. He is speaking to me. So to you I say again, Thank you for sharing this. Now, I need to listen...

Lisa said...

Thanks for posting that. I sometimes get caught up in the little things and forget that the little things are going to end up being the whole past one day. (Hopefully that makes sense.)

jen said...

and those are certainly thoughts to ponder. it too find myself frequently wondering about what i am choosing to give up by choosing to do something else. and you comment about elle really is what hits home the most for me. thoughts to ponder indeed.

Kimberly said...

I think that whoa based talk holds us back from much joy in life. How better to find joy than to be extremely good, generous, and kind?

Steph said...

I've been thinking these very same thoughts of late. Praying for you!

Organizing Mommy said...

Very deep thoughts. I think I'll go to bed on those. In the meantime, I LOVE, and I mean LOVE the tree picture looking up.

♥Aubrey said...

Yes it's difficult to realize this and many overlook it. Today's society is all about wants. We have shut off our cable just so that we can have better family time spent with the kids. More games, outdoor activities, etc...
~Great post~

~love said...

love, love, love, love, love your words & heart here. i feel ya, girl!

(i even came out of my not-commenting-because-i'm-nursing-and-don't-like-to-type-with-one-finger hiding for this post!!) =)

Shannon Bieger said...

Important words. Timely in fact. Thank you Nic!

Little Dickens Designs said...

I love that thought. I think I too needed to hear that today. Thank you for sharing your moments of introspection.

Ann said...

well said. having a missionary background i have a hard time reconciling my american lifestyle with a calling...and how should i be living in these united states of excess?

Amelia said...

Your photography is incredible. I love how much emotion you capture just in the small things. Love it!

Yes, shuffling is pretty much a standard thing in my life too, and I am wishing you that miracle you need, but something tells me that you handle things pretty darn well with your level head and calm spirit.

xo~Amelia

diana said...

So true. And knowing about the choices, also gives me a peace of mind. I can't do everything, I don't have to do everything, but I have to be able to look at myself in the mirror, and not be ashamed.

Sara Farrar Photography said...

wow. that is so true. amazing thoughts to think about and bring into our daily lives for ourselves and for our kids. i loved what you said about a life of personal comfort being overrated... so very true. very powerful words and a challenge to live our faith in action each and every day. you inspire many in many ways...walking in your faith.

PamperingBeki said...

Whoa Nic. Way to put me back in check!

Organizing Mommy said...

Back to the tree. What do I do if I want to have this picture framed on my wall at home?

Sara Farrar Photography said...

wow. that is so true. amazing thoughts to think about and bring into our daily lives for ourselves and for our kids. i loved what you said about a life of personal comfort being overrated... so very true. very powerful words and a challenge to live our faith in action each and every day. you inspire many in many ways...walking in your faith.

Shannon Bieger said...

Important words. Timely in fact. Thank you Nic!

♥Aubrey said...

Yes it's difficult to realize this and many overlook it. Today's society is all about wants. We have shut off our cable just so that we can have better family time spent with the kids. More games, outdoor activities, etc...
~Great post~