08 October 2008

juxtaposition

this life is a tricky thing.

full of celebration and sorrow, sometimes in the same breath.

yesterday, my elle turned four. she has so much personality, this kid: sweet and wily, firmly independent. she loves books and the making of things, like her mother; noise and a happy sort of bedlam, like her brothers. i just can't get enough of her.











oh, how that girl makes my heart sing.



then there's the sorrow.

while we were in the middle of cupcakes and presents, most of this continent and half the pacific ocean away, something of an entirely separate nature was transpiring. my paternal grandfather's heart, the one that had beat so unfailingly for ninety-three years, finally gave up.




he had such a full life, both because God had blessed him over and again, and because he was gracious and tender and generous to those of us lucky enough to know him. he had spent most of this past year in agonizing pain, and i am thankful for his release.

oh, how that man made my heart sing. i miss him so.

18 comments:

fleetfeet said...

Oh Nic-
I am so thankful for your Elle,
and so very sorry for your loss.
Praying for your comfort-

hartwelldesigns said...

Nic ~ My how that little girl is growing! I'm so sorry to hear about your Father's passing (((kris)))

Jenn said...

Nic,
What a bittersweet day. I hope your memories of him and the happiness of Elle's day will ease the pain.

Your images are beautiful...as are your words!

take a bow Jenn

Wenderina said...

I'm so sorry to hear of your loss - and so glad you were able to spendtime with him recently, and to share the young beauty who makes your heart sing along with this wise man who did the same.

Kimberly said...

I'm so sorry Nicole. Glad there was sweetness and the celebration of life mixed in with the bitterness of that loss. ~hugs~

Melissa said...

I'm so sorry for your loss. It's hard to watch a loved one in pain, but it doesn't make it easy to see them go.

Cris Pansiera said...

I've been around a lot lately!!! Huge fan of your goodies and photos....I'm sorry for your loss....Praying for your comfort!
XO
CRIS

stinkypeteandcompany said...

I'm sorry for your loss Nicole.
It's amazing, but even from that next place, in still moments, think our loved ones speak and teach us new and different heart songs.
Elle looks like she knows one even now - what a lovely child.
Sarah

Leah said...

I am so sorry to hear of your heart's loss, what memories you have of him! Wrap your arms around that beautiful little girl. God teaches us in so many ways...as one enters his heavens, he shares his goodness with you here on earth. Your photos are AMAZING...as usual and you have such a way with words & capturing those memories. Photography...preserving today as it was for you! Sending a Hug! Leah

Leah said...

I have to tell you...MY daddy always said "you make my heart sing!"...when I read that in your blog, I had to smile! I never really GOT it!...until I had my own children! What a perfect feeling!

Amelia said...

Nic I am so sorry for your loss!! *hugs* What a beautiful image you captured of your grandpa.

Elle is a lovely and obviously loved girl, she's blessed to have you in her life. I love reading your blog and how you share about your kids and family...it's inspiring love.

*serious hugs*
Amelia

PamperingBeki said...

Oh Nic, I'm so sorry for your loss. :(

What a beautiful legacy he left.

jen said...

Oh Nic. You baby is so beautiful. This birthdays to get to be a little bitter sweet don't they.

I'm so deeply sorry to hear about the loss of your grandfather. Hang on to all those beautiful memories. I hope peace finds you quickly. (((Hugs)))

A Rubber Band Collection said...

I'm glad that grandpa is in a happier place. I'm sure that he is having a grand 'ol time in heaven.

Thanks for letting us in on your sadness as well as your happiness. You're a beautiful person.

Our love to you and your family, Gina and Lance

jorth said...

Oh sweetie, I'm so sorry for your loss. I'd have commented sooner, but I've been stuck in bed after having my wisdom teeth out.

I know from your previous posts what an incredible man your grandfather was. I feel blessed that your shared your stories of him with us.

Big hugs,
xo Jorth

A Rubber Band Collection said...

I'm glad that grandpa is in a happier place. I'm sure that he is having a grand 'ol time in heaven.

Thanks for letting us in on your sadness as well as your happiness. You're a beautiful person.

Our love to you and your family, Gina and Lance

Amelia said...

Nic I am so sorry for your loss!! *hugs* What a beautiful image you captured of your grandpa.

Elle is a lovely and obviously loved girl, she's blessed to have you in her life. I love reading your blog and how you share about your kids and family...it's inspiring love.

*serious hugs*
Amelia

jorth said...

Oh sweetie, I'm so sorry for your loss. I'd have commented sooner, but I've been stuck in bed after having my wisdom teeth out.

I know from your previous posts what an incredible man your grandfather was. I feel blessed that your shared your stories of him with us.

Big hugs,
xo Jorth