26 August 2008

at the end of the day

i've been having the sort of days where i need to prop my eyelids open just to stay awake at 10pm, but the funny thing is that when i think back over the day, it was full of doing without actually getting much done.

i need results, people.

where exactly is the evidence of what i've been pouring myself into? well, mostly i concede that the house is a whole lot cleaner than it would be if i hadn't cleaned it, but you still wouldn't want to lick the kitchen floor. if, you know, you were the sort of person who goes around licking kitchen floors.

and i've been learning loads more about foreign countries and photography and other sorts of things i'm hoping my life will soon involve.

plus, my customers receive their orders on time. my family eats every day. i read and i run and i sit at the dinner-turned-homework table each afternoon with my kids. we play card games and color robots pictures and bake brownies so fudgy your teeth almost fall out.

so perhaps my life's work won't ever be quantified by sales reports or promotions or progress charts. perhaps the mere sight of four sleeping children, happy and whole, at the end the day is evidence enough of ambition well-placed.

because really? it's hard to imagine anything more satisfying than eating sandwiches with my kid by the river.





it's enough.

13 comments:

Jenn said...

What a beautiful place. Our children are boys 15, 11 and a little girl 2. I would love to have lunch by the river...Jenn

fleetfeet said...

You are truly amazing if you can accomplish all of this...and still manage the energy to prop your eyelids open at such a late hour. Now YOU are MY idol!

Anonymous said...

Nic,

It seems to me that you're doing a wonderful job and accomplishing more than most. Bravo on brownies, homework, lunch by the river & giving those kiddies the love they need.

Thanks again for making sense of every day things with your lovely words.

~D

sweetfunkyvintage said...

your post reminds me of that story about the invisible mother. have you ever seen it?
http://fabricofmylife.blogspot.com/2007/09/touching.html

You have many, many accomplishments!
missy

jorth said...

I have those days, too. And sandwhiches is waaaay better than a lickable kitchen floor!

Besides, I've heard that if you clean them too much, they wear out. Wouldn't want that to happen. Ahem.

Denny said...

Well said and the best results are always the ones that involve our investment in people. Especially when it is the loving, creative, caring investment into our children. Believe me it is worth it in the end.

pickles*and*co said...

Nic...I adore your writing! With all the changes in my life lately, I've sort of been wondering what my purpose is. Thanks for putting things into perspective!

Kimberly said...

Oh, well put! Definitely enough.

pungsnotded said...

Eating sandwiches by the river with your kid, sounds wonderful!

TaDa! Creations said...

I couldn't have said that better myself. I'm sure you speak for a lot of Mommies out there.

~Angel

Fledgling said...

Oh, yes! I hope that photography thing works out! Your images bring to mind what Leeuwenhoek must have seen when he invented the microscope ("Oh, THAT's what a fly really looks like!"). This is coming out wrong: Your girl looks nothing like a fly. But I do find myself saying, "Oh, THAT's what a clover really looks like to a child!"

That's magic.

Best of luck!
-N.

Stephanie said...

Isn't it amazing how we can be going going going all day and not have much to show for it? Why is that???

Thanks for the reminder that what we do IS enough!

TaDa! Creations said...

I couldn't have said that better myself. I'm sure you speak for a lot of Mommies out there.

~Angel